The rants and ravings of Bob

So...the past couple months have been rough. As I said in my last blog post..things have not exactly been going as planned here. Not much has changed in that regard, but things haven't been all THAT bad either..all things considered. I've had the place mostly to myself for almost a month now. At first, I loved it..Being able to do what I wanted...when I wanted.. Now, I'm getting a little lonely. Its also becoming quite the chore taking care of all the pets. I'm taking care of 2 dogs and 3 cats. So, that means I gotta get up early to let the dogs out, feed the cats, let the dogs back in, feed them, get showered and dressed for work, keep a eye on the dogs in case they need to be let out again, but usually they can hold it until I'm done working for the day, then go through the whole process again. I didn't mind that either at first, but really...my gosh... It just wears me out!

Thanks to a little cash infusion from my parents, I made it through a rough month financially..but that came with other costs.. My parents called on Saturday, at first just asking how I was and all that...it turned into them basically trying to convince me to come home...just without actually saying the words. I have thought of that before.. But, I just don't think I can do that right now. It would be a admission of defeat to me, it would be moving backwards, when I need to keep going forward.

Yes, things here are rough.. They aren't exactly going the way that I thought they would go. Yes, it would be easier back home..well, it might be easier, I don't really know that for sure. But.. I want to make things work here. I am happy here for the most part.. I wasn't really happy back in Wisconsin. I've made some great new friends here. Thats not to say I didn't have some great friends back home, because I did, but people here have just been so kind to me in such a short time, and they've made me feel so welcome.

If I were to go home, it would be a huge step backwards for me, and would probably make me extremely depressed. Now, if things completely fall apart here, I probably wouldn't have much of a choice to go back home.

I do want to get out and visit people. I would love to visit all my Milwaukee peeps, I have friends in Atlanta, and Memphis I want to visit, and get out to Denver to visit Billie, but the big thing thats stopping me, is money.. I can't really afford to go home, or to Denver right now. Memphis and Atlanta are both about 3 hours away from here, so I could drive there relatively cheaply, but..the problem with that is coordinating that with Eric, so he can come home for the weekend to take care of the animals.

I did mention vising home to my parents, and they will probably help with a flight home, so I think I'll do that in the next couple weeks..probably after it warms up there.

Lets see...thats about it for now... Got all that stuff off my chest...